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Plants And Water

Plants have always needed water.





Go water your plant.

Or if you just want it all to end, stop watering it. Or over-water it.

With regards to my plant, it's doing well.

Cartoon

So I'm listening to the acoustic side of In Your Honour by Foo Fighters. I'm already back in Saint John by the way.

I woke up 2 hours ago and I couldn't get back to sleep.

I slept at 8 o' clock last night.

And this Chinese Toy Recall Cartoon really cracks me up:

BWAHA. I love China.

And I have a random poll now... have fun answering!

Lookin' Back, Movin' On

Okay okay okay I promise the next line is going to be my LAST self-pity statement of the year.
Joshua to Jasmine Yap: Come let us wallow in our depression of not having loved ones by our sides.

If you've been following, thanks. Thanks for your thoughts, support and prayers.

LOOKIN' BACK at 2006

• Was a bum for a long time. Such a long time it threw me off my studying groove.
  
• Left my Friendster blog, later revived for comedic purposes.
• Owned a nice phone, and lost it in 7 months. How pathetic is that.
  
• Watched Brokeback Mountain, twice.
  
• Was addicted to Lost and all that went with it.
• Opened up "Counting Down".
• Wow. There's K-Box in Brunei? Amazing.
  
• Got jealous once. Or is it 40 times? Lyn, do you remember how many? LOL.
  
• Visited school so much I felt like a LOSER.
• My Nikon camera finally gave out.
• Wanted to buy Jason pink horns. Unfortunately I was under-funded at the time.
  
• Got into DDR and Half-Life 2, thanks to Joel A.
• Wished I could've gotten' a job. Unfortunately in Brunei, if you were an under-18 Filipino, you'd have to know someone who knows someone who knows someone who knows two ones for you to get a job.
• John D. hated me because I liked the song "Far Away" because it reminded me of Mae.
• My birthday was pretty quiet. Got a gift from Grace. Vee long-distance called. Watson from KL texted. John D called on the eve of my birthday.
• Ate at Fratini's three times in my last 2 weeks. First with Joel A., then with Grace and Aunt Carol and lastly (most bestly as well), with Lyn.
• Took IELTS.
• Amir goes indie, starts drawing again, and one of the things we both like is 'Garden State'.
• Oh oh oh. Got a Jay Chou album from Shenny.
• Jonan asked me, "How do you separate feelings from feelings?"
• Conan and I talked about foxes.
  
• Watched Antioni Forcione perform. Clinton ended up vowing not to touch his guitar forever.
• Went to Unitek and wondered if there was such a thing as "Chinese house music".
• Kevin Loh continued to call (almost) EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
• Was writing my first Paper Blog about money and talent, and suddenly Sarah and Sana appeared!
• JasmineYap likes steam boats. *cough cough*
  
• Dropped my jaw to see the amount of weight Teo lost. *applauds*
• Just as my bottom was gathering dust at home, my parents decided it was time for me to learn the ropes. Learn the ropes = clean the house, do the laundry, wash the dishes, basically do the housework and save the world. Haha actually it was a good thing. I hope I can become a good husband when I grow up. If not ah, wah piang.
• Got depressed a couple of times.
• Wondered why Lyn and my mum both disagree with Wikipedia.
  
• Made up the phrase, "SO WHAT? I'M NOT CHINESE." Validity is available here.
• My brother was (and still is, I believe), the hot thing in school.
• Missed my Laplap family like crazy while having a rather different kind of Christmas with a new family here in Canada.
  
• Entered LDR territory.
  

MOVIN' ON to 2007

• Make it work.
• Get more involved with church.
• Restart with the journal writing.
  
• Actually shave this frickin' mustache off. Average age people guess me to be with the mustache on: 22.
  
• Going to do well in school. I am going to get up my ass to kick ass.
• Grow up quick. It's adapt or die out here.

Okay...

Breathe in.
Breathe out.

2007, here I come.

Take care, everyone. And God bless.

Positive Pills Intake 1

after my haircut,

and a little neglect

i did so badly in my finals
but the counselor said

"your situation is a great challenge"

oh and sana said something like that too.

let me just get moody for the holidays and present to you a reminiscent selection of my pictures, in 16:9 format.

Positive Pills Intake 1

Me and my Dad. Really a photocopy.


Mum with the yellow flowers, and my shirt!


The most awesome


My little brother and sister


Ah, the Goh brothers.


Mae and Mil. Classic.


Muara Tiger Club. Angel, Diana, Matt, Me


MuzicJunkie


Vee and a really funny facial expression


He sits. And stares. No escape


She's very particular when it comes to ice-cream sharing.


Teenage Girl Squad


Haha. Gotta love random pics.


Ah these boys.


Save the best for last.


have a merry christmas everyone.

Soundtrack: December Depression

Ready, set, download.

01 - Telefon Tel Aviv - John Thomas On The Inside Is Nothing But Foam
02 - DJ Krush - Song 1
03 - Travis - Why Does It Always Rain On Me
04 - Frou Frou - Let Go
05 - Late Night Alumni - Empty Streets
06 - Kaskade - Distance
07 - Bent - Swollen
08 - Everything But The Girl - Single
09 - The Whatnauts - I'll Erase Away
10 - Natalie Cole - Someone That I Used To Love

Interesting notes:
DJ Krush is a Japanese hip-hop pioneer.
Natalie Cole's song 'Someone That I Used To Love' is sampled in Kanye West's 'Heard 'em Say'.
Ben Watt from EBTG suffered from Churg-Strauss Syndrome, and wrote a book documenting his day to day experiences with the disease.

December: Days of Depression

Looking at the pictures on chocolatte really bring me down.

Let me have my moment to say a few things;

Next to Teo and Chester, I think I am probably having a really rough time. Let me compare my situation to the others who are studying abroad.

JasmineYap: She's in Australia, but she's got her boyfriend there with her, and an AZN squad from Brunei, who know their lahs from bahs, and who know what Gadong is.

JohnD: His parents are a 45-minute drive from his dorm. Haha I really remember when John got arrested. And he gets to come back to Brunei once a month or so.

Sana: Although she was completely uprooted to Australia, at least her whole family got uprooted with her.

Mae&JasmineMarie: At least they've got relatives they've known for a while.

Conan&Jonan: They're in Singapore. Singapore = their homeland. I believe they're having a cruddy time too.

And I have so much doubt about whether I finish this term well. I didn't do such a good job as I promised to myself and my parents. I failed my Calculus (unexpectedly) and my Linear Algebra (sort of expectedly) the last midterm. I am really in fear of failing the finals coming up. The pressure of 5-digit tuition fees to UNBSJ and 5-digit yearly living costs is getting to me.

And yet, I still come up with excuses for my performance.

"I'm too young for all this!"
"I'm new here!"
"I haven't been studying for 10 months!"
"These 6 courses are choking me!"

Sure they sound reasonable, but

"don't make excuses, josh" - says Tanya

And the setting sun at 5pm is really taking a piece of my joy-time.

I am taking these new optimism pills (haha kidding). And I hope to get back into the groove in January.

The following pictures are pictures i have taken the previous month, and the Last Class Bash I went to Friday night. Maybe you can spot my fake smiles.

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At the tour of Saint John city with Tanya


Playing the piano in front of a small crowd.


Philip showing off his project. And Travis...umm.


Waiting for a bus.

Masquerading with Fadia.


That's our solar thermal energy collector projects, with Jesse lying on the grass.


Jesse as my supposed 'date' for the Winter Formal.


YMCA = dancefloor staple


My very first DJ performance for a school dance


Jesse, Tanya, Ali, Me, Fadia, Travis, Joanna

Me and my UNCUT hair

At the piano in school


Lights lights lights


That's where everyone was dancing

Some of them are completely trashed. Can you spot them?

In closing, I think I just need to sit down and pray a long time.

Late September

It is late September and it's getting cold
We're putting on our winter clothes and winter smiles

It's officially autumn now. Leaves turning orange before detaching from their hosts and gracefully dancing in the air, where ever the wind takes them, lightly touching ground, and getting rolled over by a bus, along with the other thousands of leaves that met their seasonal fate.

It was 5 degrees yesterday morning. FIVE. Getting to school was a challenge. When it hits winter, and the average temperature steeps to -20, waking up will be the ULTIMATE challenge.

I have a wedding gig next month.

And, as always, pictures.
And yes that LCD screen 'floats'.

And last but not least...



goodnight.
goodnight.
goodnight.

cut off