No Words

Positive Pills Intake 1

after my haircut,

and a little neglect

i did so badly in my finals
but the counselor said

"your situation is a great challenge"

oh and sana said something like that too.

let me just get moody for the holidays and present to you a reminiscent selection of my pictures, in 16:9 format.

Positive Pills Intake 1

Me and my Dad. Really a photocopy.


Mum with the yellow flowers, and my shirt!


The most awesome


My little brother and sister


Ah, the Goh brothers.


Mae and Mil. Classic.


Muara Tiger Club. Angel, Diana, Matt, Me


MuzicJunkie


Vee and a really funny facial expression


He sits. And stares. No escape


She's very particular when it comes to ice-cream sharing.


Teenage Girl Squad


Haha. Gotta love random pics.


Ah these boys.


Save the best for last.


have a merry christmas everyone.

Minute

very sleepy

and

depressed

Soundtrack: December Depression

Ready, set, download.

01 - Telefon Tel Aviv - John Thomas On The Inside Is Nothing But Foam
02 - DJ Krush - Song 1
03 - Travis - Why Does It Always Rain On Me
04 - Frou Frou - Let Go
05 - Late Night Alumni - Empty Streets
06 - Kaskade - Distance
07 - Bent - Swollen
08 - Everything But The Girl - Single
09 - The Whatnauts - I'll Erase Away
10 - Natalie Cole - Someone That I Used To Love

Interesting notes:
DJ Krush is a Japanese hip-hop pioneer.
Natalie Cole's song 'Someone That I Used To Love' is sampled in Kanye West's 'Heard 'em Say'.
Ben Watt from EBTG suffered from Churg-Strauss Syndrome, and wrote a book documenting his day to day experiences with the disease.

December: Days of Depression

Looking at the pictures on chocolatte really bring me down.

Let me have my moment to say a few things;

Next to Teo and Chester, I think I am probably having a really rough time. Let me compare my situation to the others who are studying abroad.

JasmineYap: She's in Australia, but she's got her boyfriend there with her, and an AZN squad from Brunei, who know their lahs from bahs, and who know what Gadong is.

JohnD: His parents are a 45-minute drive from his dorm. Haha I really remember when John got arrested. And he gets to come back to Brunei once a month or so.

Sana: Although she was completely uprooted to Australia, at least her whole family got uprooted with her.

Mae&JasmineMarie: At least they've got relatives they've known for a while.

Conan&Jonan: They're in Singapore. Singapore = their homeland. I believe they're having a cruddy time too.

And I have so much doubt about whether I finish this term well. I didn't do such a good job as I promised to myself and my parents. I failed my Calculus (unexpectedly) and my Linear Algebra (sort of expectedly) the last midterm. I am really in fear of failing the finals coming up. The pressure of 5-digit tuition fees to UNBSJ and 5-digit yearly living costs is getting to me.

And yet, I still come up with excuses for my performance.

"I'm too young for all this!"
"I'm new here!"
"I haven't been studying for 10 months!"
"These 6 courses are choking me!"

Sure they sound reasonable, but

"don't make excuses, josh" - says Tanya

And the setting sun at 5pm is really taking a piece of my joy-time.

I am taking these new optimism pills (haha kidding). And I hope to get back into the groove in January.

The following pictures are pictures i have taken the previous month, and the Last Class Bash I went to Friday night. Maybe you can spot my fake smiles.

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At the tour of Saint John city with Tanya


Playing the piano in front of a small crowd.


Philip showing off his project. And Travis...umm.


Waiting for a bus.

Masquerading with Fadia.


That's our solar thermal energy collector projects, with Jesse lying on the grass.


Jesse as my supposed 'date' for the Winter Formal.


YMCA = dancefloor staple


My very first DJ performance for a school dance


Jesse, Tanya, Ali, Me, Fadia, Travis, Joanna

Me and my UNCUT hair

At the piano in school


Lights lights lights


That's where everyone was dancing

Some of them are completely trashed. Can you spot them?

In closing, I think I just need to sit down and pray a long time.

Late September

It is late September and it's getting cold
We're putting on our winter clothes and winter smiles

It's officially autumn now. Leaves turning orange before detaching from their hosts and gracefully dancing in the air, where ever the wind takes them, lightly touching ground, and getting rolled over by a bus, along with the other thousands of leaves that met their seasonal fate.

It was 5 degrees yesterday morning. FIVE. Getting to school was a challenge. When it hits winter, and the average temperature steeps to -20, waking up will be the ULTIMATE challenge.

I have a wedding gig next month.

And, as always, pictures.
And yes that LCD screen 'floats'.

And last but not least...



goodnight.
goodnight.
goodnight.

cut off

time to go

Apple has some really interesting new ads to promote their new Macs. Watching Windows getting feature-battered...priceless.

Next Saturday I fly for Canada with both my parents. Love them. And I'm going to go through at least 24 hours of travel time. I wonder just how many hours are needed to sleep all that 'coming-for-me' jet lag off. Perhaps at the end of all my flights I will quote Conan at 626.

"My perception of time...
totally f**ked up"

And whoa, John D. got arrested by the KK police. Well not exactly arrested. They just brought him and his friends (maybe including that Korean guy) to the station. Maybe they arrested him cause he was FAT (still is though). Haha I'm taking sides with Geoff. John, don't get arrested again okay? Fat people don't survive in prison. Oh, and John is NOT in prison and is fine.

Conan's been a real buddy. He's been giving me tons of support about me and my move to Canada. Every white community needs a cool Asian kid right? Ah I miss the Goh brothers... Right now they're living on the 27th floor in some apartment.

Guys, here's one movie you should add to the list of 'Movies Not To Watch With Girlfriend': John Tucker Must Die. It has a scene of that gardener boy from Desperate Housewives in a thong!! Now isn't that something powerful enough to destroy your relationship? Maybe, if you yourself were checking out Ashanti and Sophia Bush....

PS. I haven't seen the movie

Last Friday, I lost my beloved X660. What a horrible way to kick off my last two weeks. No details for you. You only need the headlines. So I'm sort of uncontactable, unless you're Kevin Loh, who's memorized ALL my contact detailss, including my address and both my parents' handphone numbers. Maybe there's a bright side to this. In three weeks or so, I'll be in good cold Canada and perhaps get a free phone with those network plans with Cingular or something. I don't know if Cingular operates in Canada, but I'm doing the research...

If you want to send free texts to DST numbers, click on this. If you want to get married, want a really skilled photographer capturing the moments of your wedding, and have loadsa monies, click on this. If you're itching to find out whether you've got Bruneian traits, click on this (thanks to Chester). And finally, just when things couldn't get any dumber, click on this.

It's almost time to go! You can either give me a hug, a cheek-only kiss, or a new handphone. Hahah.

is it the Eskimos?
or is it the Maoris?
whatever, it's lovely