yesh, it's fresh

Thanks to you, chocolatte. I was so inspired.

I woke up at 0830 this morning with a huge, huge smile on my face, because:

1. I got the new layout/background done.
2. I now have a laptop (flown in a few days ago from Singapore!)
3. Tomorrow, I get o-l-d. More accurately, 17.
4. Yesterday was too short and the best time I had since...I can't remember.
5. I'm going to YDM later on.
6. I've just found a new art style and I'll be releasing my Scan'd Alls (huge play on the word scandals). You'll find out in a week.
7. I somehow am un-grounded. Are you happy now JohnD? Come back wah, fat. And who on earth is 21?

Ever wondered how to describe the nature of Ah-Lians and Ah-Bengs? Here.

Ever wondered if Silent Hill could be real? Here.

Ever wondered what killed Karen Carpenter? Here.

pink.black // tickle // 38 // crab
8 hours felt like 2

I Want To Tell/Show You Something

Right now I am at the lowest of lows. I am depressed and I'm hating it. And playing XBox alone sucks too, especially when the computer is beating you in football. I think it's time I return the XBox to Joel, since it's almost time for me to go already. I need help with separation anxiety. I need to stop worrying about nothing. I wish I didn't have to be such a loser in Malay. I wonder why suddenly everything just became so moody (it must've been the weather). I will stick to my individuality. I want to fix all my issues. I need to begin realizing that my life will have a bunch of goodbyes I don't want to say. I need to start realizing that everything has been handed to me on a silver plate and that I need to start thanking the very people who've treated me well. I need to stop being a selfish jerk. I need to stop secretly complaining. I need to learn contentness. I need to realize I cannot please everybody. I wonder when I will stop being the person who 'watches things happen'. I still want to play tambourine in YDM. I want to go without leaving everything behind. I need to get that out of my system.

All my thoughts are in a massive jumble jungle.

To keep me from cutting myself (emo joke), I decided to go through my pictures and show you some of my best shots. And they've not been after-touched by Photoshop.

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Zoom

Taken near Sheraton

Listen

Sana listening, for once

Water JourneysMy family rafting near the shore in Philippines

StarringBracelet of my friend, who is a girl

goodnight

draw draw draw

Meeting

My dad rocks. I went out with him yesterday and he bought me a new shirt and 2 pairs of Adidas shoes. But I've got to find a way to make him stop talking to the cashiers. Hahah

I watched the France vs Portugal at 3am this morning while using the phone. It was so sad to see Cristiano Ronaldo cry (OMG am I jumping over the sexual-orientation fence?). One thing positive people say what this World Cup does is bring people and nations together. MY FOOT. Just because England lost to Portugal, the English shun Portugal as a tourist destination. The Brazillians burn down a statue of Ronaldin-ho in rage because Brazil made an unexpected exit. And now, that Germany is out...who KNOWS what's going to happen???

I bought Madonna's 'Confessions On A Dancefloor' in Bandar today because I had to break my $100 and the bus driver didn't have $99 on him. The album is quite interesting to listen to, especially since she has ABBA's 'Gimme Gimme Gimme' on 'Hung Up'. And then I met up with Lyn, Shenny and Sia for a very short while in Gadong.

The best example of music rape is the massively annoying mash up mix of:

• Black Eyed Peas - My Humps,
• The Pussycat Dolls - Don't Cha, and
• Sugababes - Push The Button

I don't even WANT to begin to tell you how bad/offkey/stupid/yuck/pukely it sounds.

Next time I'll tell you about my dreams, and how rubbish some of them are...but now I'm helping my mum learn DDR!

two in one / that's more fun

Ago

1 Week

It was day nine

^{(counting up)}

It also was day fifty-four

^{(counting down)}

1 Month

I can remember

longing...

for company, an iPod, a camera

anticipating...

Jonan and Conan's return

wishing...

JD wasn't fat, JasMarie and Mae were still here
hating...

Kevin Loh for never going out

giving up...

1 Year

I was ecstatic it was my birth-month. I love being a July-an.

Everything around me seemed perfect, except for the mediocre grades and pimples.

*Wasn't over 'almost-season failure' yet* I needed "GET OVER IT CLASSES"

1 Decade

I remember being called Jay-J. There was a Joshua George in my Primary 1 class.

I was spectacled.

Diana, Angel and Matt were my good friends. Thank God we still are.

I started organ classes.

The girls in my class bullied me with "HA you look like a dork" jokes. I hope you have BRACES NOW AND CAN PICK UP RADIO SIGNALS. Haha JK.

hand in hand